Looking in the mirror, I don’t like the reflection,
Another dehydrated, restless night, and more self-deception,
Why am I running from reality and Why must my feelings be buried?
Seeing no way out this downward spiral is heartbreakingly scary,
Hiding me from myself, I know this isn’t living,
Back in another smoke filled bar with my shovel im digging,
Deep within I know I must break up this madness,
But it seems to my next drink I am always a magnet,
Making small talk with a stranger to avoid my own anger,
Living a lie that hurts so deep and always in fear,
Once again letting myself down as I order another beer,
Since months later cycle is now broken,
The dark memories fade and my heart begins to open,
The anger, disgust, and helplessness now dwindles,
And with yours truly I now happily rekindle.